some thoughts I had in September while riding up to Philly:

so there is something about this world that I haven't seen before,
there is something new and fascinating and something I want
to keep in my hands forever, to touch and to feel
and to raise up to my lips and kiss
for the sunshine that beats down on my eyes and
the light that kisses my skin with perfection.

there trees passing by, with their silent stares of information,
whispers that I have not heard in ages, my ears have been deaf to their sounds.
I haven't stopped and touched them with my mind,
stopped moving long enough for them to reach out to me and let me catch up
so much I have not taken the time to pay attention to.
More than anything, I want to go back into the woods,
to stand beside the water, to just feel and listen to the cool air against my cheek,
and know that there is something far grander than me in the making,
that there is a whole world of things that I want to see and know about.
I have not take enough time to really think about them these past few months.

I have let the passing of time happen, just moved on from day to day and
not stopped and really let time pass through me, not just over me,
time is not just a vessel that I am simply in charge of, it needs to be a part of my journey as well.
Let not another year pass by that I don't stay connected, I must make that effort,
must stop just getting by, must move back to the way things were before I left wisconsin.
take with me that beauty of life, that sacred clinging to the world that offers so much more than deadlines and paths and destinations.
just sit back and breathe in and breathe out, let things go that need letting go.

need to sit there in the sand, letting my feet sink down under the ground,
to let me soul reach forward and backwards and in all ranges of motion,
to be free of what I have placed around me and to think about everything that I want to be free from.
to let my heart sing louder than my thoughts, to stop placing myself in a pattern I am not made for.

i am not here to just get from this point to another,
i want to touch and feel and see and love all that there is.
it's time to get back, to walk in the woods, to listen to the trees,
to take on those emotions that I have set aside from where I am now.

back to the magical connections of the world that I need to be in,
back to setting up the ritual of choice, the ritual of consciousness,
to be aware of now and only now, not later not some other point in time that may take away from now.
I want to be in this great and wonderful way that I can sit back and just let life flow,
forward and backwards and around, this circle of light that it is so important that I get back to.
no more shutting things out and letting them go on without me,
no more passing today off until tomorrow and until time never comes.
do only those things that I wish to do, give out that energy that I have to give,
to not take from something else to give somewhere it is not wanted or needed to go.
time to take back the tree-whispers and leaf-falling wishes,
reconnecting to life

reconnected

written on October 3, 2003; modified on October 3, 2003.